Before I begin this, a warning... If you are a man, this will be an uncomfortable post to read...
Why...?
Periods.
That time of the month.
Aunt flow has come to visit
Menstrual cycle
"Just give her chocolate" week
Whatever you want to call it, I'm talking about my period so proceed with caution
I have been seriously debating whether or not to even post this. It's a subject that very few wish to talk about and seems to embarrass or gross out others. I bring up this topic for a few reasons. This is a natural thing. Yes I hate dealing with it, I hate talking about, I don't like hearing about it but it happens. Every day, every hour, ever minute some woman is on her period. If you are reading this and are offended by period talk, or grossed out, or just anything that would give you reason to think negatively about this, then please discontinue. For those that stay, it's about to get WAY to personal here!
Why are there some things about being a parent we are never warned about. Why do we have moments of "This is not what I signed up for!!"
I really thought I knew exactly what I was getting into and I thought I knew exactly how I was going to be as a mom. Although some things have in fact gone better that planned, it's always those moments that are without warning, the ones you never even imagined having to deal with that though me for a complete loop of "what the hell do I do now?".
Having a daughter, I knew one day in the future, preferably as far away in the future as possible, I would have to explain to her what being a female means. I would have to tell her about the natural things that happen to our bodies every month. As it would be, the introduction to this topic came way to freakin soon!!
This has happened twice but I will just recount one because this is embarrassing enough as it is without having to tell two different stories of it. A week or so ago, I was on my period. (ugh I never want to type those words again!!) Adam and I decided to take Alayna out for her very first movie theater show (Despicable Me 2). After the show, I took her to the bathroom. Well, being on my period blood got in the toilet and because Alayna never misses anything she laughs very loudly "Mommy you have the red pee again!"
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I had no idea what to say to her other than "Yes sweety, now let's hurry up and finish so we can meet Daddy and go home." Of course that didnt work, she still wanted to talk about it. So plenty of "no no no" "shhhhh" and gibberish to drown out her words and we made it out. Adam asked what happened cause he heard some "commotion" and I told him about it... The insane laughter erupted and I couldnt help but join in.
I am still not prepared to explain to her what happens every month. I don't even think she would understand, but I've been asking myself repeatedly, why was I never warned about the toddler years of shared bathrooms and that time of the month? As a society, we seem to not talk about those personal topics but surely family could have offered some warning... I can't be the only mother in history who has gone through this and I surely will not be the last.
Some might wonder "how about just dont share a bathroom!" At home we don't, but in public we still do because it's just easier. Plus I am not gonna leave my 4 year old outside the stall to wait for me.
Now that I have put myself out there with one of the most embarrassing moments of motherhood, I can recoil into my ball of humiliation!
Monday, August 12, 2013
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Little Piercings
*This is no where near written as well as I would like, just bare with me*
The topic of getting little girls ears pierced seems to be a hot topic between all grandmothers and new moms.
"It's easier to take care of as an infant"
"They won't even remember the pain"
The plus side of the conversation is almost endless.
When my daughter entered the world 4 years ago, it wasn't long before her grandmothers (on both sides) wanted to know when she would be getting pierced.
I have to tell you, it was a no brainer to declare "She will get them when she is old enough to ask!"
Although everyone accepted this, Nana still lovingly pushed for me to change my mind. She even said if she would take her to get them done if I was afraid of being there for the pain.
7 weeks ago, Alayna asked about getting her ears pierced. She always enjoyed playing with my ears so I wasn't surprised. However, this is a 4 year old child we are dealing with... Their wants and desires change in an instant so I said I would give it a week. Every day for that week she asked about getting them.
When the weekend came around we headed to the mall.
Next we went to pick out earrings. I knew there would have to be 2 people so that the ears were done at the same time, otherwise there would be only 1 earring. However, we were a bit early so...
Our favorite place to eat at the mall.... the pretzel place. This kid loves her pretzel sticks
And her lemonade.
After all our bellies were happy and full, it was time!
I'm pretty sure she had NO IDEA what it she was in for. I tried explaining it to her many times and I told it would hurt for a little bit but not to be afraid. She sat on my lap like an excited little squirrel. She liked the part where the ladies took markers and "drew" on her ears. Then it was
1...
2...
3!!!
*SCREAMING CRYING PAIN!!!!!!!*
Oh my heart broke for that kid!
Adam took her out to the bench to get her to calm down.
It took a little bit and the promise of candy for her to finally calm down and then it was huge smiles and laughing about her pretty diamond earrings!
Now 6 weeks later, She has quite the collection. Yes she picked them all out. We still haven't changed them out her originals just yet but that will happen very soon.
Looking back on all this, I have to agree with the Grandma's that it would have been a lot easier to have done this when she was an infant, but I still would not have done it. My little girl chose for herself to take this big step and I wouldn't want to change that.
The topic of getting little girls ears pierced seems to be a hot topic between all grandmothers and new moms.
"It's easier to take care of as an infant"
"They won't even remember the pain"
The plus side of the conversation is almost endless.
When my daughter entered the world 4 years ago, it wasn't long before her grandmothers (on both sides) wanted to know when she would be getting pierced.
I have to tell you, it was a no brainer to declare "She will get them when she is old enough to ask!"
Although everyone accepted this, Nana still lovingly pushed for me to change my mind. She even said if she would take her to get them done if I was afraid of being there for the pain.
7 weeks ago, Alayna asked about getting her ears pierced. She always enjoyed playing with my ears so I wasn't surprised. However, this is a 4 year old child we are dealing with... Their wants and desires change in an instant so I said I would give it a week. Every day for that week she asked about getting them.
When the weekend came around we headed to the mall.
The first step was to get a hair cut. She was in desperate need!! She has never been a fan of hair salons but this time, she did perfect!!
After all our bellies were happy and full, it was time!
I'm pretty sure she had NO IDEA what it she was in for. I tried explaining it to her many times and I told it would hurt for a little bit but not to be afraid. She sat on my lap like an excited little squirrel. She liked the part where the ladies took markers and "drew" on her ears. Then it was
1...
2...
3!!!
*SCREAMING CRYING PAIN!!!!!!!*
Oh my heart broke for that kid!
Looking back on all this, I have to agree with the Grandma's that it would have been a lot easier to have done this when she was an infant, but I still would not have done it. My little girl chose for herself to take this big step and I wouldn't want to change that.
Saturday, July 27, 2013
The Bathroom nightmares (Sorry it's long)
If you've ever heard that girls are easier to potty train than boys, it would have been really nice for people to explain that to my daughter. Although finally under control, let me tell you about the nightmare of potty training this kid.
Lets go back in time, a little over a year. April 2012. My mother, Alayna and I head down to San Antonio for Adam's basic training graduation.
On the cart are diapers and baby wipes. Why does the 3 year old need them still? Because she really had zero interest in trying to go potty at that point.
We were going to be moving in October and I was determined to have her potty trained before we left for Florida. I read every book, every blog, every "Potty train in X amount of days" you could possibly think of. I consulted every adult who had to potty train their own child I knew. I started with pull up training pants and you know what... it did nothing!! It is nothing more than a diaper. It took my mother coming to help and just putting the child in regular panties to get the whole thing going. It took about a week for her to really nail down what she was supposed to do but there it was.... the light at the end of the tunnel!
Now that she had the basics, time for motivation. Candy? worked for about a day. Suckers? Worked only some of the time. New books? Nope. Chocolate? Negative. Ice cream? Ain't gonna happen. So finally I thought about a sticker chart. Worked like a charm!! She picked out her own stickers (mustaches were the big hit, of all things). 1 sticker for pee, 2 for poo. Although she still had a pull up on for sleeping, it was going great.
Now we move to Florida. New sticker chart - all new set of problems. She did ok making to go pee but this child really did not want to poo. She would go a week or longer without having a movement and by the time she did, it was really big and hard so it was painful! She would cry and cry and cry. We tried giving her food laxatives like prunes and prune juice to help but she would still hold and hold and hold.
She started going to daycare in hopes that being around other kids would help her socially, and she would see other kids going potty so in turn, hopefully helping her with going to the bathroom.
Holy crap did that ever backfire!!! The first week was nothing but wet clothes. I got called all but 1 day that she needed more clothes.
"Well this is going to be a nightmare!" was all I could think. "Give it time, give it time!"
I decided to reincorporate the sticker chart. This time, no accidents = sticker for the day. If she could go the entire week with no accidents, then there would be a special reward. It was usually ice cream but somtimes it would be a book or a new toy. Just anything to get her motivated. At this point, she was no longer wearing pullups at night. She would get up in the middle of the night like a little champ!
Things started looking up.
2 days no accidents. Alright
1 week no accidents! Sweet!!
2 weeks no accidents! Oh thank goodness!!
But then...
The classroom size doubled! So many more kids and not enough eyes! The problems started all over again.
I started looking around online again to see if other parents had went through this and you know what I found?
A LOT of parents go through this but there is this stupid thing called pride that so many are unwilling to compromise and let others know that yes, this happens. This happens often! And if I hear one more non-parent say "It just means your child was never potty trained in the first place" I will slap a Bitch!
Do you want to know the most common piece of advice that the majority of all those had in common?
"Dont make a big deal out of the accidents and just encourage to get to the potty quicker next time."
Let me just say this was easier to read and think about than it was to execute, especially my husband.
He had a very hard time understanding that 1) yes many kids go through this, and 2) he just couldnt grasp why a 4 year old was having so many problems.
This caused a lot of fights in the house. Although never in front of Alayna, most children are sensitive enough to know when there is turmoil in the house.
I cried so many times. When I was alone, on the phone, hell - even walking around the commissary. I was so lost on how to help my little girl. I was so clueless on what I needed to do. All I could think of was make Adam understand that the bigger deal we made, the worse it would be and to just keep encouraging Alayna.
I decided to pull her out of school (daycare) until we could get the problem under control. There wasnt much progress made on the home front either...
I cant even tell you how much money was wasted buying new panties constantly. (If she poo-d bad enough, trust me, it was A LOT easier to just throw them away then try to deal with cleaning and stain removal). One of the motivators we tried was letting her pick out what panties she wanted (usually a princess) and telling her not to get that princess wet or dirty. Still didnt help.
Finally we decided to go the pediatrician. This had to be the point where I felt like I was defeated and I must have been a horrible mom. Remember that stupid thing I mentioned called Pride? Well mine was gone. It had fully kicked my ass and was laughing at my misery. If I couldn't potty train my daughter and had to resort to going to the pediatrician... what the hell kind of mom was I?
He recommended giving her a daily laxative. Ive heard those can be someone addictive (your body gets used to them so once you stop, its back to constant constipation) so I was reluctant, but we gave it a try. After 2 weeks, I fell down on my knees and felt like singing the entire Hallalujah Chorus! Here it is a couple months later and other than 1 bad day at my moms farm (explained in another post soon to come) she is a potty champion! I am so proud of her and so thankful that we finally made it!
Lets go back in time, a little over a year. April 2012. My mother, Alayna and I head down to San Antonio for Adam's basic training graduation.
We were going to be moving in October and I was determined to have her potty trained before we left for Florida. I read every book, every blog, every "Potty train in X amount of days" you could possibly think of. I consulted every adult who had to potty train their own child I knew. I started with pull up training pants and you know what... it did nothing!! It is nothing more than a diaper. It took my mother coming to help and just putting the child in regular panties to get the whole thing going. It took about a week for her to really nail down what she was supposed to do but there it was.... the light at the end of the tunnel!
Now we move to Florida. New sticker chart - all new set of problems. She did ok making to go pee but this child really did not want to poo. She would go a week or longer without having a movement and by the time she did, it was really big and hard so it was painful! She would cry and cry and cry. We tried giving her food laxatives like prunes and prune juice to help but she would still hold and hold and hold.
She started going to daycare in hopes that being around other kids would help her socially, and she would see other kids going potty so in turn, hopefully helping her with going to the bathroom.
Holy crap did that ever backfire!!! The first week was nothing but wet clothes. I got called all but 1 day that she needed more clothes.
"Well this is going to be a nightmare!" was all I could think. "Give it time, give it time!"
I decided to reincorporate the sticker chart. This time, no accidents = sticker for the day. If she could go the entire week with no accidents, then there would be a special reward. It was usually ice cream but somtimes it would be a book or a new toy. Just anything to get her motivated. At this point, she was no longer wearing pullups at night. She would get up in the middle of the night like a little champ!
Things started looking up.
2 days no accidents. Alright
1 week no accidents! Sweet!!
2 weeks no accidents! Oh thank goodness!!
But then...
The classroom size doubled! So many more kids and not enough eyes! The problems started all over again.
I started looking around online again to see if other parents had went through this and you know what I found?
A LOT of parents go through this but there is this stupid thing called pride that so many are unwilling to compromise and let others know that yes, this happens. This happens often! And if I hear one more non-parent say "It just means your child was never potty trained in the first place" I will slap a Bitch!
Do you want to know the most common piece of advice that the majority of all those had in common?
"Dont make a big deal out of the accidents and just encourage to get to the potty quicker next time."
Let me just say this was easier to read and think about than it was to execute, especially my husband.
He had a very hard time understanding that 1) yes many kids go through this, and 2) he just couldnt grasp why a 4 year old was having so many problems.
This caused a lot of fights in the house. Although never in front of Alayna, most children are sensitive enough to know when there is turmoil in the house.
I cried so many times. When I was alone, on the phone, hell - even walking around the commissary. I was so lost on how to help my little girl. I was so clueless on what I needed to do. All I could think of was make Adam understand that the bigger deal we made, the worse it would be and to just keep encouraging Alayna.
I decided to pull her out of school (daycare) until we could get the problem under control. There wasnt much progress made on the home front either...
I cant even tell you how much money was wasted buying new panties constantly. (If she poo-d bad enough, trust me, it was A LOT easier to just throw them away then try to deal with cleaning and stain removal). One of the motivators we tried was letting her pick out what panties she wanted (usually a princess) and telling her not to get that princess wet or dirty. Still didnt help.
(Unrelated picture, just wanted a cute pic of her to break up the long post)
Finally we decided to go the pediatrician. This had to be the point where I felt like I was defeated and I must have been a horrible mom. Remember that stupid thing I mentioned called Pride? Well mine was gone. It had fully kicked my ass and was laughing at my misery. If I couldn't potty train my daughter and had to resort to going to the pediatrician... what the hell kind of mom was I?
He recommended giving her a daily laxative. Ive heard those can be someone addictive (your body gets used to them so once you stop, its back to constant constipation) so I was reluctant, but we gave it a try. After 2 weeks, I fell down on my knees and felt like singing the entire Hallalujah Chorus! Here it is a couple months later and other than 1 bad day at my moms farm (explained in another post soon to come) she is a potty champion! I am so proud of her and so thankful that we finally made it!
over a year??
Has it really been that long?
I honestly don't even remember what I put in the last post. I could go back and read it so I know where to start but hey... aint nobody got time for dat!
So lets just start with right now.
My favorite past time :) Spending 3 weeks with my mom was amazing! However, Im back in Florida and it's back to work. I am an at home daycare provider. Aside from some of the ridiculous rules, I love it! I enjoy working in my own home and it made it so much easier for Alayna.
Adam, being fully in the Air Force and getting closer to being done with the initial on the job training, has found a love for kayaking. He goes pretty much whenever he gets a chance. Apparently it's a great way to fish down here. And of course now I cant find a picture of him on it. I know I had one... More proof that I need to clean up my picture files.
So here is a picture of them playing together...
We also have a very hyper beagle. Affectionately named Dory because Finding Nemo is (or was at the time) Alayna's favorite movie.
what a smile....
Life in Florida is just moving right along and each day holds so much potential. I cant wait to see what tomorrow will bring.
I honestly don't even remember what I put in the last post. I could go back and read it so I know where to start but hey... aint nobody got time for dat!
So lets just start with right now.
My fantastically goofy daughter who apparently is truly mini me. According to my parents and other family members, she has the same strong willed, independent hyperness I had at her age. Are there moments where I want to pull my hair out? Uh... YES!!! Do I want to break down in tears because I'm convinced I must have done (or am doing) something wrong? Constantly! Does my heart sing with delight and almost burst in joy with every "I love you mommy" *kiss*? You better freakin believe it! This amazing little 4 year old has the ability to drive me to the brink of insanity and pull me right back to overwhelming love in a matter of seconds. Isn't that what motherhood is all about?
Next month she starts school. Well, half day of pre-k but it's still school. I'm excited for her and I would be telling a lie if i said I wasnt excited for her to be in school. I love this child, I really do... but she thrives in a learning environment. She is such a smart little cookie that is often takes me by total surprise.
For instance.....
Before moving to Florida, we were living in Branson. Adam was still at basic training so my dad and I took Alayna and my sister Micayla to the Dixie Stampede. Please go see the show if you are ever in Branson!
Anyway, they sell souvenir little flags and both the girls got one. Alayna - being a 3 year old- of course spills stuff all over it. This had to have been back in July or August of 2012. That's almost a year ago, yet out of the blue last month Alayna started talking about her blue flag with the pink drink spilled over it and how she wishes it came to Florida.
This happens surprisingly a lot! Yet every time it catches me off guard and makes me just go... whoa...
Adam, being fully in the Air Force and getting closer to being done with the initial on the job training, has found a love for kayaking. He goes pretty much whenever he gets a chance. Apparently it's a great way to fish down here. And of course now I cant find a picture of him on it. I know I had one... More proof that I need to clean up my picture files.
We also have a very hyper beagle. Affectionately named Dory because Finding Nemo is (or was at the time) Alayna's favorite movie.
Life in Florida is just moving right along and each day holds so much potential. I cant wait to see what tomorrow will bring.
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
It has been awhile since I have posted but I can't really feel sorry about it. Life has been crazy and hectic and all around just a roller coaster.
My last blog was nothing more than an update on my weight loss journey. I'm excited to have lost a total of 31 pounds since Feb. 14. Admittedly, the last month has not had much (any) progress but at least I haven't gained. I haven't been exercising the way I was in the beginning but I still try to watch what I eat and portion control.
Weight loss in of its self is a good thing for me. The doctors classified me as overweight bordering obese for my height. The one thing I sort of had on my side is even though I have big - ish legs and thighs, a good chunk is muscle, thanks to my show choir days. Other than the need to drop the weight, the true reason behind wanting to lose weight was to be better prepared for pregnancy.
Trying to become more healthy for my pregnancy is honestly going better than I expected. my weight loss is progressing, I'm eating much healthier, and I have beaten being anemic. I know what caused my anemia so it was rather easy to get it under control. It did take a bit of time, but still successfully managed it. I have also started taking prenatal vitamins to better prepare.
My amazing husband is thriving in the Air Force. His BMT graduation was an unforgettable event!! Tech school has been going great for him. His is tied for top student in his class. I had the opportunity to fly down to biloxi, mississippi over memorial weekend to see him. Because that base has every other friday off, we had 4 amazing days together. It was truly a magical weekend that will be in my heart forever. Soon, he will be headed off to his second tech school base to learn the specifics of his job and I'm thankful that it is only a 7 hour drive. It will make it much easier to see each other.
My 3 year old daughter is a very rowdy, head strong lil firecracker!! People always warn about the "terrible 2s" but never say a word about when a kid turns 3. Looking back, I don't think she was all that bad at 2. She mostly listened and usually did as she was told. She loved to play and laugh and just be a happy child. A switch must have flipped in her brain when she turned 3 because dear lord!! I love this child with all my heart but geez she became a hand full quick!!! She is still happy and full of life. Constantly smiling and laughing but she gets into trouble much more. She loves pushing her boundaries and seeing just how far she go before she is sent to the "no no chair". Potty training isn't working out so well, it just hasnt clicked in her mind yet but we are still trying. I love my child so very much and she means the world to me. man oh man what a teen she will be...
well, that is all for now. til anon
My last blog was nothing more than an update on my weight loss journey. I'm excited to have lost a total of 31 pounds since Feb. 14. Admittedly, the last month has not had much (any) progress but at least I haven't gained. I haven't been exercising the way I was in the beginning but I still try to watch what I eat and portion control.
Weight loss in of its self is a good thing for me. The doctors classified me as overweight bordering obese for my height. The one thing I sort of had on my side is even though I have big - ish legs and thighs, a good chunk is muscle, thanks to my show choir days. Other than the need to drop the weight, the true reason behind wanting to lose weight was to be better prepared for pregnancy.
Trying to become more healthy for my pregnancy is honestly going better than I expected. my weight loss is progressing, I'm eating much healthier, and I have beaten being anemic. I know what caused my anemia so it was rather easy to get it under control. It did take a bit of time, but still successfully managed it. I have also started taking prenatal vitamins to better prepare.
My amazing husband is thriving in the Air Force. His BMT graduation was an unforgettable event!! Tech school has been going great for him. His is tied for top student in his class. I had the opportunity to fly down to biloxi, mississippi over memorial weekend to see him. Because that base has every other friday off, we had 4 amazing days together. It was truly a magical weekend that will be in my heart forever. Soon, he will be headed off to his second tech school base to learn the specifics of his job and I'm thankful that it is only a 7 hour drive. It will make it much easier to see each other.
My 3 year old daughter is a very rowdy, head strong lil firecracker!! People always warn about the "terrible 2s" but never say a word about when a kid turns 3. Looking back, I don't think she was all that bad at 2. She mostly listened and usually did as she was told. She loved to play and laugh and just be a happy child. A switch must have flipped in her brain when she turned 3 because dear lord!! I love this child with all my heart but geez she became a hand full quick!!! She is still happy and full of life. Constantly smiling and laughing but she gets into trouble much more. She loves pushing her boundaries and seeing just how far she go before she is sent to the "no no chair". Potty training isn't working out so well, it just hasnt clicked in her mind yet but we are still trying. I love my child so very much and she means the world to me. man oh man what a teen she will be...
well, that is all for now. til anon
Sunday, April 1, 2012
Just a quick update...
This is going to be just a short update on how I've been doing on my weight loss... Well when Adam left I weighed 210 pounds. I am down to 188. 22 pounds!! I still have a week and a half to go until I leave for Texas so hopefully I can at least get to 185. I would love to see 180 but not to sure if that is possible.
ANyway.... That's really it.
til anon
ANyway.... That's really it.
til anon
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Babbles
I would like to first announce that since my husband left, I have lost 11 pounds!! This is exciting for me because it means that I am only 9 pounds away from my goal in April. Along with losing the weight, I want to spend some time on toning my arms. I want to be able to wear a somewhat dressy sleeveless shirt at some point during his graduation weekend.
I actually find it kind of hard to blog anymore. Most of what I am thinking or feeling I put into a letter to him and then I don't feel much of a need to express it on here. Maybe I am just in a rut... I don't know. I just think I will make no promises of when I will post, if I do I do... just don't expect anything.
I would, however, like to state that The Hunger Games, is an amazing book!!
That's all.....
I actually find it kind of hard to blog anymore. Most of what I am thinking or feeling I put into a letter to him and then I don't feel much of a need to express it on here. Maybe I am just in a rut... I don't know. I just think I will make no promises of when I will post, if I do I do... just don't expect anything.
I would, however, like to state that The Hunger Games, is an amazing book!!
That's all.....
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Setting a weight Goal!
I admit, I have never actually done this before, but I am giving myself a date and a weight to reach!!!
April 12 is the day and 190 is my goal. I am currently 201 so I don't think its some outrageous number goal. This is a little more than a pound a week. I am confident I can achieve this!!! Food has always been a weakness of mine, especially that of the sweet kind. After my husband left for BMT I have found myself in the strange position of not wanting food. ANY food... I don't get hungry, I have no cravings, I don't want to cook or bake... With low blood sugar problems and battling anemia, I have to force myself to eat snacks during the day. If I don't, I become extremely shaky and have come close to passing out. Very unhealthy!!! I'm eating a lot more vegetables than I ever thought I would, actually to the point where I don't even cook meat, just veggies. I also have a small stash of healthy snacks at work so I don't cheat on chocolate and other sugaryness.
Today I also set a goal of no more soda!! It's starting as just giving it up for Lent, but I hope to make it permanent.
There are a few different work out programs I do to lose weight without getting bored of the same thing. I have 3 different dance games for the Kinect, a workout game for the kinect, and the biggest losers last chance workout dvd. It's great having a variety.
With all this, I honestly believe I can achieve my goal!! My daughter is a great motivator as well because she loves to participate in the dance games.
April 12 is the day and 190 is my goal. I am currently 201 so I don't think its some outrageous number goal. This is a little more than a pound a week. I am confident I can achieve this!!! Food has always been a weakness of mine, especially that of the sweet kind. After my husband left for BMT I have found myself in the strange position of not wanting food. ANY food... I don't get hungry, I have no cravings, I don't want to cook or bake... With low blood sugar problems and battling anemia, I have to force myself to eat snacks during the day. If I don't, I become extremely shaky and have come close to passing out. Very unhealthy!!! I'm eating a lot more vegetables than I ever thought I would, actually to the point where I don't even cook meat, just veggies. I also have a small stash of healthy snacks at work so I don't cheat on chocolate and other sugaryness.
Today I also set a goal of no more soda!! It's starting as just giving it up for Lent, but I hope to make it permanent.
There are a few different work out programs I do to lose weight without getting bored of the same thing. I have 3 different dance games for the Kinect, a workout game for the kinect, and the biggest losers last chance workout dvd. It's great having a variety.
With all this, I honestly believe I can achieve my goal!! My daughter is a great motivator as well because she loves to participate in the dance games.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
New Obsession....
I'm completely addicted to Pinterest!!!
http://pinterest.com/fisher4411
yup that's really all I have to say :)
http://pinterest.com/fisher4411
yup that's really all I have to say :)
One week down
My hubby has been gone for one week to BMT. Last week... *sigh* lets just say it was a bad week and leave it at that. As much I believed I was ready for him to be gone, I was not!!
On a good note... I lost exactly 5 pounds last week!! Yes my weigh in day is on a Tuesday. Didn't plan it that way, it just happened. Basically I just didn't eat very much. When I did, it was much more healthy and very small portion. I never felt hungry. I had to force myself to eat. I also worked out a little. I started the last chance workout dvd on Friday and also bought Zumba dance for the kinect. Both are intense and fun but damn... Zumba made me realize just how out of shape I truly am!!
I really want to turn things around this week and not be quick to cry (I did too much of that last week). I am going to buy a big thing of flour today and try to bake this week. My food is almost always affected by my mood so hopefully everything will turn out ok. I have a few different pie fillings I need to use up so there will plenty of pie!!
Also on my list for this week is to finish a drawing. Yes just one. One that I can look at and be happy about. I think having small weekly goals like this will help me keep my mind off things and hopefully make these next 8 weeks go by more quickly.
What do you do help time move more quickly?? Any suggestions for baking and/or drawing??
On a good note... I lost exactly 5 pounds last week!! Yes my weigh in day is on a Tuesday. Didn't plan it that way, it just happened. Basically I just didn't eat very much. When I did, it was much more healthy and very small portion. I never felt hungry. I had to force myself to eat. I also worked out a little. I started the last chance workout dvd on Friday and also bought Zumba dance for the kinect. Both are intense and fun but damn... Zumba made me realize just how out of shape I truly am!!
I really want to turn things around this week and not be quick to cry (I did too much of that last week). I am going to buy a big thing of flour today and try to bake this week. My food is almost always affected by my mood so hopefully everything will turn out ok. I have a few different pie fillings I need to use up so there will plenty of pie!!
Also on my list for this week is to finish a drawing. Yes just one. One that I can look at and be happy about. I think having small weekly goals like this will help me keep my mind off things and hopefully make these next 8 weeks go by more quickly.
What do you do help time move more quickly?? Any suggestions for baking and/or drawing??
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
New Chapter
The time is finally here. My husband left yesterday morning for Air Force Basic Training. I am so very proud of him. I promised him I would stay strong and not be a negative burden. I would not focus on the negative and stay positive because this is such a wonderful thing. He has wanted this ever since high school and we have fought very hard over the last year to finally reach this point!!
But then why does today seem so wrong to me. Why does it feel like the world should stop. I feel lost without him and I'm scared of not being strong enough for this. I realize how much he truly is my other half. I'm incomplete without him. Little insignificant moments, like just seeing the snow melt, makes me break down because he isn't here to share it with me.
I am thankful that my daughter is too young to really understand whats going on. She doesn't understand that Daddy isn't going to be around for a long time. I've told her Daddy is away training for his new job and she just accepts it. She still asks where he is and wants him but it hasn't hit her yet.
Even though I am terrified of my own limitations, I do hope and pray for strength. I have to be strong... I have a 3 year old who depends on me to be solid. I don't want her to worry and wonder why mommy seems so sad. I am determined to not let my sadness be seen. Yes, I can write them here in hopes that someone can tell me "I've been there and this helped me" but I will not let her be affected by this...
I know I kinda go back and forth on how I am feeling and it probably seems confusing on what exactly I am saying but that is due to be so confused myself today. One moment I want to cry my eyes out and the next moment, I feel I can hold my head high... I'm not sure... Just kinda blah today...
So until I can compose my thoughts into something a bit more cohesive...
Til anon my friends
But then why does today seem so wrong to me. Why does it feel like the world should stop. I feel lost without him and I'm scared of not being strong enough for this. I realize how much he truly is my other half. I'm incomplete without him. Little insignificant moments, like just seeing the snow melt, makes me break down because he isn't here to share it with me.
I am thankful that my daughter is too young to really understand whats going on. She doesn't understand that Daddy isn't going to be around for a long time. I've told her Daddy is away training for his new job and she just accepts it. She still asks where he is and wants him but it hasn't hit her yet.
Even though I am terrified of my own limitations, I do hope and pray for strength. I have to be strong... I have a 3 year old who depends on me to be solid. I don't want her to worry and wonder why mommy seems so sad. I am determined to not let my sadness be seen. Yes, I can write them here in hopes that someone can tell me "I've been there and this helped me" but I will not let her be affected by this...
I know I kinda go back and forth on how I am feeling and it probably seems confusing on what exactly I am saying but that is due to be so confused myself today. One moment I want to cry my eyes out and the next moment, I feel I can hold my head high... I'm not sure... Just kinda blah today...
So until I can compose my thoughts into something a bit more cohesive...
Til anon my friends
Monday, January 23, 2012
Baby plans
It is no secret that I am ready for another baby. When that biological clock ticks its hard to ignore. My husband says he is ready to an extent. He does want a kid but there are certain things that wont allow us to right now.
This biggest reason is the military. Because my husband is still in the DEP (delayed entry program) he isn't considered fully in yet. From what I understand from the recruiter, they are looking for pretty much any reason to disqualify applicants because there are so many people trying (and already in) the air force. One child is allowed but if we got pregnant before he was in, there would be a very good chance he would be disqualified. There would be a lot of paper work and higher ups would have to approve of it.
As you all know, we live with my dad and that is another reason why we are waiting. We want to be on a base and settled down before our next child.
The hardest part for me is the waiting. My daughter is already 3 years old. I never wanted a big gap between the ages...
The time line we are looking at right now is (hopefully) on a base by the end of the year. In my mind, start planning to try and get pregnant early to mid 2013. With that in mind, I plan on spending this year focusing on my health and having my body ready to be pregnant. Mainly, my weight. I still haven't dropped the weight I gained from my first pregnancy. I have to admit, I haven't really taken an aggressive route with that though. I have been eating better so I have lost some weight but not nearly what I should. This year, I plan on spending more time being active. This will become much easier as the weather turns nice. I plan on taking many walks with my 3 year old. We also got a Kinect for the 360 and there are many games for that and they are ALL very active. I'm not just talking about the exercise ones either. Aside from that, I also have a few work out DVD's that I honestly enjoy. One being the Biggest Loser Last Chance Workout.
Aside from my weight, I also need to address my anemia. I have been struggling with iron deficiency anemia for about a year and half. It has gotten better over the last few months but I need to get my iron levels up. They are still pretty low. I think one thing that has helped has been my change in diet. I do eat healthier (usually) and I'm always looking for ways to change recipes to be more healthy. I have made small progress with adding more vegetables to my diet and its getting easier. I also hope to incorporate more fish. This will be rather hard for me since I'm not a big fish eater...
I want to better prepare myself for the next pregnancy. With my 3 year old, I didn't even know I was pregnant until I was 5 months along. I wasn't prepared and even though nothing went wrong, I want to do better this time. I know that as a starter, I need to focus on more folic acid. One easy thing my doctor suggested is having a glass of 100% orange juice, either store bought or freshly squeezed. It may not give me my full daily amount but it will be a good habit to get into to guarantee that I am at least getting some! The other thing is to get a really good multi vitamin that contains folic acid.
I truly hope that with getting these things under control and taking steps to be better prepared, I will be able to have a wonderful pregnancy, even if it is over a year away ^^
What are your thoughts on being more prepared??
This biggest reason is the military. Because my husband is still in the DEP (delayed entry program) he isn't considered fully in yet. From what I understand from the recruiter, they are looking for pretty much any reason to disqualify applicants because there are so many people trying (and already in) the air force. One child is allowed but if we got pregnant before he was in, there would be a very good chance he would be disqualified. There would be a lot of paper work and higher ups would have to approve of it.
As you all know, we live with my dad and that is another reason why we are waiting. We want to be on a base and settled down before our next child.
The hardest part for me is the waiting. My daughter is already 3 years old. I never wanted a big gap between the ages...
The time line we are looking at right now is (hopefully) on a base by the end of the year. In my mind, start planning to try and get pregnant early to mid 2013. With that in mind, I plan on spending this year focusing on my health and having my body ready to be pregnant. Mainly, my weight. I still haven't dropped the weight I gained from my first pregnancy. I have to admit, I haven't really taken an aggressive route with that though. I have been eating better so I have lost some weight but not nearly what I should. This year, I plan on spending more time being active. This will become much easier as the weather turns nice. I plan on taking many walks with my 3 year old. We also got a Kinect for the 360 and there are many games for that and they are ALL very active. I'm not just talking about the exercise ones either. Aside from that, I also have a few work out DVD's that I honestly enjoy. One being the Biggest Loser Last Chance Workout.
Aside from my weight, I also need to address my anemia. I have been struggling with iron deficiency anemia for about a year and half. It has gotten better over the last few months but I need to get my iron levels up. They are still pretty low. I think one thing that has helped has been my change in diet. I do eat healthier (usually) and I'm always looking for ways to change recipes to be more healthy. I have made small progress with adding more vegetables to my diet and its getting easier. I also hope to incorporate more fish. This will be rather hard for me since I'm not a big fish eater...
I want to better prepare myself for the next pregnancy. With my 3 year old, I didn't even know I was pregnant until I was 5 months along. I wasn't prepared and even though nothing went wrong, I want to do better this time. I know that as a starter, I need to focus on more folic acid. One easy thing my doctor suggested is having a glass of 100% orange juice, either store bought or freshly squeezed. It may not give me my full daily amount but it will be a good habit to get into to guarantee that I am at least getting some! The other thing is to get a really good multi vitamin that contains folic acid.
I truly hope that with getting these things under control and taking steps to be better prepared, I will be able to have a wonderful pregnancy, even if it is over a year away ^^
What are your thoughts on being more prepared??
New happenings at the Bakery
This is something I am very excited about!! My boss has finally taken my advice and is going to start making our cakes from scratch!
My boss is used to having pre made, shipped in frozen cakes. To be honest, they do taste pretty good. But there is nothing you can really do with them as far as flavors. There is no room for experimenting and being more creative. We have both been doing research on popular flavors and taking into consideration seasonal foods. Although we have not finalized some of the more "special" flavors, we do have a pretty good list of flavors. Once we have decided on all flavs I will post about them.
This week begins a very busy few weeks for the bakery. The next 3 weekend have wedding cakes and non are easy or small. This both excites me and frustrates me. I'm excited because it means more time at the bakery but its also frustrating because I have to be at the bakery more when I should be spending more time with my husband before he leaves for basic.
Over the course of the next few months, I do hope to have more time with the Bakery. I truely love my job there and wish I could be there more. Time will only tell on that one though.
Oh and another exciting thing... we are going to start offering fondant cakes. This is unbelievably exciting for me. The designs are limitless with fondant and there are things that can be created that could never be done with buttercream!! I seriously wish I would have done my daughters birthday cake with fondant but I still have no experience with it.
Anyway, enough of the mumbles. New things are happening and I cant wait to dive in headfirst!!
Til anon my friends.
My boss is used to having pre made, shipped in frozen cakes. To be honest, they do taste pretty good. But there is nothing you can really do with them as far as flavors. There is no room for experimenting and being more creative. We have both been doing research on popular flavors and taking into consideration seasonal foods. Although we have not finalized some of the more "special" flavors, we do have a pretty good list of flavors. Once we have decided on all flavs I will post about them.
This week begins a very busy few weeks for the bakery. The next 3 weekend have wedding cakes and non are easy or small. This both excites me and frustrates me. I'm excited because it means more time at the bakery but its also frustrating because I have to be at the bakery more when I should be spending more time with my husband before he leaves for basic.
Over the course of the next few months, I do hope to have more time with the Bakery. I truely love my job there and wish I could be there more. Time will only tell on that one though.
Oh and another exciting thing... we are going to start offering fondant cakes. This is unbelievably exciting for me. The designs are limitless with fondant and there are things that can be created that could never be done with buttercream!! I seriously wish I would have done my daughters birthday cake with fondant but I still have no experience with it.
Anyway, enough of the mumbles. New things are happening and I cant wait to dive in headfirst!!
Til anon my friends.
when did 8 weeks become 21 days??
I honestly can't believe how fast time has flown by. It seems like yesterday I awoke with the thought of "8 weeks and my husband is off to basic". Today I looked at the calender and its 21 days. 21 days!!!!! 21 days til everything changes. I'm not looking forward to being alone but I realize that it doesn't scare me nearly as much as it would have a few years ago.
If I am able to really dive into my work with the bakery I know that I can keep my mind busy enough to not dwell on having my husband gone. The only thing with that is that because of the hours I do have at the bakery (being there at 5 am) I need someone to take my daughter to daycare the days I work. To be honest, I don't know how much help my dad is willing to give. So that is a big uncertainty in the future.
One thing IS for sure, time is not my friend. My wonderful husband will soon be leaving to enter the air force. The other thing is that because there are only 21 days until he leaves, that means there are only 21 days left to get the adoption into court! Yes it could wait until he returns but no one wants that! This adoption was supposed to have been finalized back in November!! My lawyer has known since then what day Adam was going to the service so needless to say I'm rather pissed at my lawyer for taking so f****** long.
Enough of the negative though... I am happy about this next chapter in our lives. I am excited about the new opportunities this will open.
If I am able to really dive into my work with the bakery I know that I can keep my mind busy enough to not dwell on having my husband gone. The only thing with that is that because of the hours I do have at the bakery (being there at 5 am) I need someone to take my daughter to daycare the days I work. To be honest, I don't know how much help my dad is willing to give. So that is a big uncertainty in the future.
One thing IS for sure, time is not my friend. My wonderful husband will soon be leaving to enter the air force. The other thing is that because there are only 21 days until he leaves, that means there are only 21 days left to get the adoption into court! Yes it could wait until he returns but no one wants that! This adoption was supposed to have been finalized back in November!! My lawyer has known since then what day Adam was going to the service so needless to say I'm rather pissed at my lawyer for taking so f****** long.
Enough of the negative though... I am happy about this next chapter in our lives. I am excited about the new opportunities this will open.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
How do I not care???
First post of the year and it's a rant. Not exactly how I wanted to start the year but oh well...
This is more or less about my sister.
Before I begin, I don't think I have really talked about my sister much. I still live at home with my dad and he is supposed to have the majority of custody over my little sister. However, dad usually only has her 1 day a week and 1 day every other weekend.
Here is the situation... I spent a lot of money on her last year. I've bought toys, clothes (over $150 on christmas alone), coloring books, and other art things. Other than 1 shirt from christmas, every thing has ended up at her mothers.
This. Pisses. Me. Off!!!
So I ask.. how do I not care so much about this??
The thing about it is... I think I have a pretty good sense of clothes for kids. Am I a fasionista? HELL no!! But I know the difference between sending a kid to school looking nice compared to looking like a hobo. The clothes I buy for my sister (and my own kid for that matter) are always nice. I'm not saying I always buy new, there are wonderful clothes that can be found out a thrift store but at least they LOOK nice.
So all of the nice clothes I spend MY money on end up being in her closet at her mom's and we are sent her hobo clothes.
So it's either dress her nice and never see those clothes again, or dress her like a hobo to be sent back to her mom and keep the nice things for only when we know she stays here. It sucks being like that.
Again... How am I supposed to not care....
I ask dad about it and his take on the whole thing is "at least they are getting used". Well that's all fine but if that's the case, why does she look like a hobo when she comes home from her moms? Why does she get sent to us looking like her clothes are second hand rejects??
I hate that I get so worked up about this. I have tried to not care, but ever time I just get more and more pissed off. ugh... F***!!!!!
This is more or less about my sister.
Before I begin, I don't think I have really talked about my sister much. I still live at home with my dad and he is supposed to have the majority of custody over my little sister. However, dad usually only has her 1 day a week and 1 day every other weekend.
Here is the situation... I spent a lot of money on her last year. I've bought toys, clothes (over $150 on christmas alone), coloring books, and other art things. Other than 1 shirt from christmas, every thing has ended up at her mothers.
This. Pisses. Me. Off!!!
So I ask.. how do I not care so much about this??
The thing about it is... I think I have a pretty good sense of clothes for kids. Am I a fasionista? HELL no!! But I know the difference between sending a kid to school looking nice compared to looking like a hobo. The clothes I buy for my sister (and my own kid for that matter) are always nice. I'm not saying I always buy new, there are wonderful clothes that can be found out a thrift store but at least they LOOK nice.
So all of the nice clothes I spend MY money on end up being in her closet at her mom's and we are sent her hobo clothes.
So it's either dress her nice and never see those clothes again, or dress her like a hobo to be sent back to her mom and keep the nice things for only when we know she stays here. It sucks being like that.
Again... How am I supposed to not care....
I ask dad about it and his take on the whole thing is "at least they are getting used". Well that's all fine but if that's the case, why does she look like a hobo when she comes home from her moms? Why does she get sent to us looking like her clothes are second hand rejects??
I hate that I get so worked up about this. I have tried to not care, but ever time I just get more and more pissed off. ugh... F***!!!!!
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
cake dump
There aren't as many photo's to show this time but still wanted to share.
This was so fun to make!! It was for a lil girl turning 1. The tracks continue on the back as well.
The bakery has been trying to do more with cupcakes. This one didn't go over so great with the boss but I still love them!!
Made this the other day as a start to the christmas season. The topper is a candle and the side thingy is a non-edible lay on.
This is a cupcake. Yes, a cupcake. This was purely an experiment to see if I could make a poinsettia. It went over so well that a customer ordered 2 dozen.
I am not overly proud of this cake. There are things about it that seriously get under my skin because of the imperfections.! However, the customer was overly ecstatic about it and that's really the most important thing.
This was the big project of the week. A winter wedding cake. I'm very pleased with how this turned out. The flowers and holly are made of gum paste.
As always, I am learning new things all the time and trying to grow in my medium.
Til anon!
This was the big project of the week. A winter wedding cake. I'm very pleased with how this turned out. The flowers and holly are made of gum paste.
As always, I am learning new things all the time and trying to grow in my medium.
Til anon!
Saturday, December 17, 2011
shrimp dinner
I meant to post this the other day, but couldnt find my memory card adapter. Let me start by saying, I do not enjoy seafood. Something about the texture and flavors just don't do much for me.
Having said that... I very much enjoy cooking seafood. Well, cooking in general...
My husband loves seafood. As a surprise, I cooked one of his favorite shrimp dishes.
*I have a very crappy camera so I apologize*
"Garlic Herb shrimp"
Basically it's leeks, garlic, and other assorted herbs and spices. Add the shrimp and white cooking wine.
veggie and noodles in alfredo sauce.
broccoli and cheese couscous. Of all the things that my 2 year old would become obsessed with, it's couscous! she had everything on her plate and 3 helpings of couscous!! I adore children's language so for her its not "couscous" it "kookoos"
dessert was fruit salad. yes... that is an ice cream scooper.
Needless to say, it was a fantastic dinner!!
One of the best compliments I have ever received was my husband telling me he was afraid to go out to eat because he was afraid that nowhere would have good enough food. Must mean I am doing something right!!
til anon
Having said that... I very much enjoy cooking seafood. Well, cooking in general...
My husband loves seafood. As a surprise, I cooked one of his favorite shrimp dishes.
*I have a very crappy camera so I apologize*
Basically it's leeks, garlic, and other assorted herbs and spices. Add the shrimp and white cooking wine.
Needless to say, it was a fantastic dinner!!
One of the best compliments I have ever received was my husband telling me he was afraid to go out to eat because he was afraid that nowhere would have good enough food. Must mean I am doing something right!!
til anon
Thursday, December 15, 2011
3 countdowns!!
Yup. 3. They are all very fast approaching as well.
The quickest of the countdowns is Christmas. Just 10 days to go. I can honestly say that I am ready. Is everything fully finished? No, but everything is planned out. A couple things I have to wait until day of (or before) because it entails baking. Freshness is kind of a big deal with these things. I honestly can not wait to see my family open their presents.
The second countdown is 3 weeks. 3 weeks and my daughter will be 3 years old. Originally I was planning on a really big party. We wanted to invite all the family from all over the place to come and celebrate. Things change though. I don't know if it was just something about this month or what but we changed our minds on that. It could also be due to the fact my husband is leaving soon, but we wanted it to be a bit more of a private event. We are going to have cake and presents and all that on her birthday but we are planning on an alternate day in a few months (when its very nice weather) and bring everyone we can together for a pool party. Or something along those lines.
The final countdown is one I'm excited for but also dread at the same time. My husbands ship-out date. 8 and half weeks. I know that it is a good thing for so many different reasons but I'm selfish enough to hold on to the negativeness of him being away. I say that but I also know that I am strong enough to not let it show. I can't promise that there won't be days where I am down and lonely, but I won't be a burden of unhappiness. I have to strong for multiple reasons, but especially for my family. On a happier note, with him going in it will mean so many wonderful opportunities for the future.
I still plan on making my dreams a reality and become a chef (as well as pastry chef). I'm working on this more by cooking new foods. I will hopefully post again tonight with pictures of last nights adventure.
til anon
The quickest of the countdowns is Christmas. Just 10 days to go. I can honestly say that I am ready. Is everything fully finished? No, but everything is planned out. A couple things I have to wait until day of (or before) because it entails baking. Freshness is kind of a big deal with these things. I honestly can not wait to see my family open their presents.
The second countdown is 3 weeks. 3 weeks and my daughter will be 3 years old. Originally I was planning on a really big party. We wanted to invite all the family from all over the place to come and celebrate. Things change though. I don't know if it was just something about this month or what but we changed our minds on that. It could also be due to the fact my husband is leaving soon, but we wanted it to be a bit more of a private event. We are going to have cake and presents and all that on her birthday but we are planning on an alternate day in a few months (when its very nice weather) and bring everyone we can together for a pool party. Or something along those lines.
The final countdown is one I'm excited for but also dread at the same time. My husbands ship-out date. 8 and half weeks. I know that it is a good thing for so many different reasons but I'm selfish enough to hold on to the negativeness of him being away. I say that but I also know that I am strong enough to not let it show. I can't promise that there won't be days where I am down and lonely, but I won't be a burden of unhappiness. I have to strong for multiple reasons, but especially for my family. On a happier note, with him going in it will mean so many wonderful opportunities for the future.
I still plan on making my dreams a reality and become a chef (as well as pastry chef). I'm working on this more by cooking new foods. I will hopefully post again tonight with pictures of last nights adventure.
til anon
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
10 weeks but just an update.
So yes... 10 weeks to go but it is going to fly by!!
Thanksgiving came and went in a blink of an eye. It was wonderful but it just went by too fast. My mom came to visit which was very nice. I hate that I didn't get any pictures but to be honest, I had no time to think about pictures... My mother and I cooked for 2 straight days. My lil girl helped make all the cookies. Here is a run down of all the food:
Apps
cheese platter
fruit and veggie platter
deviled eggs
Main
25 pound turkey
BBQ pork loin
10 pounds of mashed potatoes (homemade)
5 pound sweet potato cassarole
corn salad
hot damn (basically a shrimp salad my mom invented)
green bean cassarole
7 lawyer bean dip (yes this a main not an app)
butter rolls
Dessert
Apple pie
chess pie (basically a sweet custard pie) (from scratch)
Pumpkin pie (from scratch)
Cherry crumble pie
3 dozen choco chip cookies (made with splenda) (made from scratch)
2 dozen cran-raisin oatmeal cookies (made from scratch)
3 dozen peanut butter cookies (from scratch)
2 dozen choco peanut butter surprise cupcakes (make from scratch with homemade icing)
Baked apple cheesecake (from scratch)
strawberry brownie trifle
cream puffs (from scratch)
I'm sure i forgot something but the point is... there was a crap ton of food!!!
I really hate that I didnt get any pictures... oh well....
One of the great things about this Thanksgiving was my daughter's aunt having her beautiful baby! So glad she made it into the world happy as can be.
Christmas is just around the corner and followed closely by My daughter's birthday. All that needs to be done for that is decorations and games. Crap... I still need to send invites!! O__O *sigh* too much to do...
My husband leaves for basic in 10 weeks. I'm kinda freakin out due to the fact that time is flying by but as someone told me, I need to stay calm and enjoy this time we have.
I guess that is all for now... I really need to update with some photos...
Thanksgiving came and went in a blink of an eye. It was wonderful but it just went by too fast. My mom came to visit which was very nice. I hate that I didn't get any pictures but to be honest, I had no time to think about pictures... My mother and I cooked for 2 straight days. My lil girl helped make all the cookies. Here is a run down of all the food:
Apps
cheese platter
fruit and veggie platter
deviled eggs
Main
25 pound turkey
BBQ pork loin
10 pounds of mashed potatoes (homemade)
5 pound sweet potato cassarole
corn salad
hot damn (basically a shrimp salad my mom invented)
green bean cassarole
7 lawyer bean dip (yes this a main not an app)
butter rolls
Dessert
Apple pie
chess pie (basically a sweet custard pie) (from scratch)
Pumpkin pie (from scratch)
Cherry crumble pie
3 dozen choco chip cookies (made with splenda) (made from scratch)
2 dozen cran-raisin oatmeal cookies (made from scratch)
3 dozen peanut butter cookies (from scratch)
2 dozen choco peanut butter surprise cupcakes (make from scratch with homemade icing)
Baked apple cheesecake (from scratch)
strawberry brownie trifle
cream puffs (from scratch)
I'm sure i forgot something but the point is... there was a crap ton of food!!!
I really hate that I didnt get any pictures... oh well....
One of the great things about this Thanksgiving was my daughter's aunt having her beautiful baby! So glad she made it into the world happy as can be.
Christmas is just around the corner and followed closely by My daughter's birthday. All that needs to be done for that is decorations and games. Crap... I still need to send invites!! O__O *sigh* too much to do...
My husband leaves for basic in 10 weeks. I'm kinda freakin out due to the fact that time is flying by but as someone told me, I need to stay calm and enjoy this time we have.
I guess that is all for now... I really need to update with some photos...
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
13 weeks...
I'm not going to get overly emotional (yet) about the fact time is counting down. At this moment, I'm not even worried about it. It's not here yet so I don't want to think about it too much.
I have been trying to think of things to help keep me busy while my husband is at basic and truthfully, I haven't come up with too many interesting things. I am planning on being in the kitchen A LOT more than I probably ever have been. I hope to get my little girl to bake something all by herself (mommy only taking over the actual oven part).
One thing I am sure of is that I am overly determined to not be depressed. Well, at least I will not let it show. I don't want to be a burden on everyone I know by being mopey and hating life and etc. Plus, I don't want it to be hard on my daughter either.
I worry about how she is going to handle him being away. The nights he has to stay at work until after she is bed are already kind of tough. She always wants to know where he is and why he can't read her a story. He always does goofy voices way better than I do. So I do worry...
My husband truly is my best friend. It was great the other night, we talked for almost 3 hours about everything, and nothing at the same time. Talked about our day, what has been going on at work, talked about our hopes for once we are on a base. Talked about just how soon to try for a baby. In the past, have thrown around name ideas and wondered if we still liked the names. Still in love with the son's name but still can't decide on if we have a daughter.
Completely random but I love the name "Dante". Adam isnt totally crazy about it so he thinks it is more of a middle name type thing . So we shall see.
I guess my mumbles are enough for now...
Just remember one thing.... "stressed" spelled backwards is "desserts"
I have been trying to think of things to help keep me busy while my husband is at basic and truthfully, I haven't come up with too many interesting things. I am planning on being in the kitchen A LOT more than I probably ever have been. I hope to get my little girl to bake something all by herself (mommy only taking over the actual oven part).
One thing I am sure of is that I am overly determined to not be depressed. Well, at least I will not let it show. I don't want to be a burden on everyone I know by being mopey and hating life and etc. Plus, I don't want it to be hard on my daughter either.
I worry about how she is going to handle him being away. The nights he has to stay at work until after she is bed are already kind of tough. She always wants to know where he is and why he can't read her a story. He always does goofy voices way better than I do. So I do worry...
My husband truly is my best friend. It was great the other night, we talked for almost 3 hours about everything, and nothing at the same time. Talked about our day, what has been going on at work, talked about our hopes for once we are on a base. Talked about just how soon to try for a baby. In the past, have thrown around name ideas and wondered if we still liked the names. Still in love with the son's name but still can't decide on if we have a daughter.
Completely random but I love the name "Dante". Adam isnt totally crazy about it so he thinks it is more of a middle name type thing . So we shall see.
I guess my mumbles are enough for now...
Just remember one thing.... "stressed" spelled backwards is "desserts"
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