13 weeks...

I'm not going to get overly emotional (yet) about the fact time is counting down. At this moment, I'm not even worried about it. It's not here yet so I don't want to think about it too much.
I have been trying to think of things to help keep me busy while my husband is at basic and truthfully, I haven't come up with too many interesting things. I am planning on being in the kitchen A LOT more than I probably ever have been. I hope to get my little girl to bake something all by herself (mommy only taking over the actual oven part).
One thing I am sure of is that I am overly determined to not be depressed. Well, at least I will not let it show. I don't want to be a burden on everyone I know by being mopey and hating life and etc. Plus, I don't want it to be hard on my daughter either.
I worry about how she is going to handle him being away. The nights he has to stay at work until after she is bed are already kind of tough. She always wants to know where he is and why he can't read her a story. He always does goofy voices way better than I do. So I do worry...

My husband truly is my best friend. It was great the other night, we talked for almost 3 hours about everything, and nothing at the same time. Talked about our day, what has been going on at work, talked about our hopes for once we are on a base. Talked about just how soon to try for a baby. In the past, have thrown around name ideas and wondered if we still liked the names. Still in love with the son's name but still can't decide on if we have a daughter.
Completely random but I love the name "Dante". Adam isnt totally crazy about it so he thinks it is more of a middle name type thing .  So we shall see.

I guess my mumbles are enough for now...
Just remember one thing.... "stressed" spelled backwards is "desserts"

The countdown begins.

Yesterday was a very exciting day. Adam got a phone call that he has been waiting a very, very long time to get. He got the phone call from the air force recruiter. Feb. 14 is the day he starts basic training.

14 weeks until everything changes.... forever.

Don't get me wrong, we are ecstatic about the changes, but they will be hard none the less.
For starters, I do not deal with separation very easily... that alone is going to be the biggest challenge for me. Having a daughter will definitely help me though because I can return to the "single mother" state of mind for awhile and devote every breathe to only her.

Truth is, I never seen myself as a military spouse. I never really wanted to be... I never wanted anything to do with the military. I have nothing against them and obviously I support them, but it just wasn't something I seen in my future. Things have changed since I met my husband. The more he talked about his dreams of military careers and the life he wanted to build, the more I wanted to be a part of it as well. Now here we are... 14 very short weeks until our dreams can become reality.

Adam is going into Integrated Avionics. He told me that basically -very basically- if its electronic on a plane, he will know how to fix it. Its a great start but I know what he really wants is to be an officer. So this is just a stepping stone for a brighter future.

I was asked "now that you know when you are going in, whats the plan for another child?"
It's no secret that I have been itching to have another child and truthfully, we really do want another one right now, but the responsible side of us knows that it is better to wait. So the plan is to wait until we are located on a base and settled in. This is for multiple reasons but the biggest one is Adam really doesnt want to take any chances of something going wrong if we are trying to move while I'm pregnant. I love him so much...

So in a nutshell... Things are falling into place and things are going to change. I'm scared out of my mind but excited to see what is beyond that horizon.

I have a problem...

The first step is to admit you have a problem right?? RIGHT??!?!?!??!?

Well....I have a problem.. .... I. Am obsessed with wrapping paper.....
Might I remind you the title of my blogs "Welcome to my insanity"   Now you understand...
Seriously I dont know why I love it so much. When I say I'm obsessed, its not that I want EVERY wrapping paper that is out there, its more that I honestly can't pass a beautiful roll of paper. I'm also kinda picky... I'm not a big fan of character paper, like Dora, Spongebob, etc. I love metallic silvers and golds, Shiny..... I think that is the key... SHINY!!!!!!! I was well behaved today though... I only bought 1 roll. (I seriously have over 20 never opened rolls left over from last year)

Here are some pictures just so you know im not kidding...

This is my Christmas box. Bought it last year after christmas as well as most of that paper...
Here are a few of my fav's

I cant help loving my camo paper!

I probably would have bought every single roll of this if they this hadn't been the last one!! You have to love the shinyness.

More shiny!!

This is the only roll I have bought this year... seriously how am i supposed to NOT buy it?!?!

These are too big to fit in the container. I know I said I dont like character paper... and thats true, I didnt buy these, my mom did so im looking forward to using them up!! LMAO!!


I know I'm crazy and thats fiiiiine with me. You have to admit, there could be far worse things than wrapping paper!!! And just so you can get an idea of how all this paper works together under a christmas tree, here is last years picture.

I love the lamp shaped one over there... NO way is anyone gonna guess that one... and i know what your thinking... holy crap that is a lot of stuff... my dad likes to go over board on the gifts... there were 6 of us opening presents as well as a handfull for other family, but ya. It was still a lot!

christmas success!!!

I have been meaning to post some pics of the adorable clothes we have bought for christmas/birthday gifts so here we go :)

This is probably my fav of all. Found this at Old Navy. I didnt even want to save it for later, I just wanted to put it on her immediately! The pic kinda sucks because it makes the sweater dress look really wide but I still love it.

We found this today and I couldn't pass it up. I think her Aunt Kate will really like this one. This is from Carters. No, there are not 4 legs... Just couldn't decide which leggings I liked better.

Another adorable outfit. The stipulation on getting the skirt was that it had to have either leggings or tights under them so that was easy enough!! It was actually really hard to choose which one to get because they had so many very cute colors. This is a JCPenny find.

Because there is so much theater, music, and dance influence in the family, I couldn't help myself with this shirt. This is another Carter find.

This is one that Adam couldn't leave without. I know its supposed to be a boy shirt but who really cares?? She loves dino's and she is cute in ANYTHING she puts on! Also from Carters.

Not really my normal style for what we buy for her but I thought this would be cute for the holiday season.  A Carter find.

I simply adore this shirt!!! Great find at ToysRUs!

One of her favorite things is Butterflies. No... the sleeves are not different lengths, they can be rolled up and fastened with a button. Cant wait to see her in this. This is from Old Navy

More proof that she loves her butterflies. These are from Carters and I dont know why I didnt just put these in with the other pants.... oh well....

I believe all these came from JCPenny. We bought a couple other pants the day we got these but we went ahead and let her use them now since most of her 2T's are too short.


I honestly cant wait for her to open these on christmas and her birthday :)

pumpkin muffin fail....

I was very excited about trying a new recipe for muffins. Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Muffins!! I found the recipe somewhere online and it sounded so delicious that I knew I had to try it!! I had also planned on trying to make a tutorial on how to make them as I went........

Thats not gonna happen....

I guess the title is a little misleading because, truthfully, they do taste really good. The pumpkin is subtle and not overwhelming. Would you understand what I meant by saying the pumpkin in these are a quiet spice addition?? I really dont know how to explain it... It's there, but its not at the same time...
I did a little to much chocolate chips and I wish they were mini but the only thing I had where regular sized. It was just a but too much I think.


The biggest problem is they are a bit gummy... If that makes any sense lol. Anyone who has ever overmixed their muffins will understand (i think)

So i will be saving a tutorial until i can get the fluffyness that i am looking for.

photo dump

I've wanted to post pics of cakes I'm making at the bakery AS I get them done, but lets face it... life gets in the way... so here is a cake dump of what I've done so far (actually, just the ones I really like)

This was one of he first cakes I made for the Bakery. I really love how this one turned out. 7 year old girl LOVES frogs.

A simple cake but I love chocolate icing cakes.

Another chocolate buttercream but its also showing my roses and rose buds.

a fall birthday cake was all they told me. so just airbrushed different fall colors and piped brown leaves for the border.

Thank goodness for the black sugar sheets. I really didnt want to pipe the stripes lol. Anyway, this cake was for the bakery's neighbor at the Salon. Not too thrilled with some of the stripes but it sill turned out to be a cute cake.

Another cake for the salon girls. Just practicing a couple different flowers. First time ever doing sunflowers.

40th birthday cake using car pick. I meant to take the picture before getting it in the box but kinda forgot lol.

Something the Bakery started is selling individual cupcakes. I didn't to show just regular, boring cupcakes so I had some fun and made a sunflower on top.



Hope you enjoyed and stay tuned for more.

"Oh hamburgers..."

My Promise

There was once a time that I dreamed of spotlights and standing ovations. I dreamed of music pulsing in my veins. I admit, I never wanted the spotlight. Honestly!! I'm humble enough to know that my voice wasn't good enough for that. But I thought my dancing and back up vocals could be enough.
Broadway was my ultimate goal but realistically I figured that would never happen. I did have a chance to perform for Royal Carribean Cruise Line.... But I gave up my dreams..... Distant words told me I wasnt good enough, cruel words told me it was foolish, unguided words told me it was no way to make a living.... I gave up ever dream. I made excuses for walking away, "old injuries"  "afraid of leaving"  "wanted to stay in college"  Mostly I was afraid of failure because no one believed I could do it.

I stand here today making a promise to my daughter and any future child I may have someday... actually, I make this promise to any child I might have some influence on...
I promise with every fiber of my existence, I will not let you down by not supporting you.  I will do everything I can to help you reach the stars you dream of. Your dreams are more important than anything. I promise I will always love and support you. If you are gay, straight, bi, transgender, turn yourself green... I dont care! I will love you! I know you will go through phases that I won't like or agree with but I will still love you and do my best to at least make sure you are safe and happy. I promise I will never turn away when you are seeking guidance. I promise I will always be there to listen when you need help. I love you so much and there is nothing on this Earth that could ever change that.